Saturday, May 31, 2008
i reali hope dere was sumtink i cld do.. i feel so bad when i heard wad happen yet i cldnt do anytink to make e situation better.. i feel so useless.. i cldnt do anytink except hearing.. im feelin sad alr.. sighs.. im sry..
kawaii!;
9:51 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
hmm.. dear gt a job yest.. nono.. is counted as 2.. yest i felt damn confused.. in a way im reali happy dat he gt his job cos he reali wanted it n he was lookin for job 4 quite awhile liao.. but is like b4 he gt his job.. e tym we spend together is alr nt alot.. nw.. wun it be lesser? i noe.. in a way dis will make us treasure our times together more.. but hw often can we go out together? i reali miss e tyms we spend in sec sch.. goin to sch n back home together.. it was reali v.sweet den..nw i come to tink of it.. even though we hv ccas last tym it will b on e same dae.. or even nt it's juz a dae or 2.. nw is lyk.. i oso duno hw mani daes.. )= yups.. i noe i hv to grow up, face e reality alr.. inoe "wang shi zhi neng hui wei" but still i juz cant help it.. im reali sure dat dis memories will always remain part of mi.. im bloggin this here nt bcos i wana blame it on him or wad.. is juz dat i dun wana say it out to him.. he will 4 sure feel guilty n bad bout it.. dun wan dis to affect his mood.. yet i need a space to juz say everytink out.. okie.. i guess i will need a long tym to get use to it.. (but i noe i reali dun lyk it..) hope we can get thru all dis n be happily together again.. muackz!! (=P
kawaii!;
1:14 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Im feelin kinda upset nw.. cos i reali duno when wil it be a complete gatherin.. is lyk we did make an effort to hv 1.. but nt every1 can make it.. e 5 of u shld noe wad im tokin about rite? hmm.. i reali wana tell u all that i will nt forget all of u nor e promise we hv made..e memories spent together wil always be kept.. i hope e same applies to all of u.. (= hmm.. *deep in tots..* i guess no 1 understands wad im feelin currently.. hahas..
kawaii!;
10:56 AM
Friday, May 16, 2008
eloz!! im here to blog bout wad happen durin e camp n yest.. hahax.. lyk wad i wrote in my last post, i was away for camp frm fri -sat.. met sammi at 7 for dinner den took a bus dwn to sp.. met up wif janelle,sheema n zheng yan.. n im suppose to meet jerry after skatin.. she damn cute can..she went to return her skates n she ran past us w/o noticin dat we were dere.. hahax.. cute sia.. den e 6 of us went off to report for camp... jerry, sheema n janelle were in e same empire,jetcos.. zy, sammi n i were in e same grp.. YESSA!! BRUKAS!! hahax.. okie la.. first nite dey went thru some cheers n at nite.. or rather earli in e mornin we had our nite walk.. every girl suppose to pair up wif a guy cos dey ask e guys to 'protect' e gals.. hahax.. n we had to address each other by our 'no.' cos dey say we shldnt call each other name durin e walk.. shld noe y rite? hahax..it was quite fun but it wasnt scary enuf.. cos heard frm those who went to e SB camp dat it was more scary n fun.. but still okie la.. i had fun.. n i made frenz.. e walk started at ard 2 plus 3 n it ended at almost 5.. is lyk when e mrt start den we slp lor... so weird... hahax.. then e 2nd dae we woke up at 10.. n i was a whole day of cheering, games n campfire songs.. e ames were all quite fun.. n we all enjoyed myself.. i met alot of new frenz at e camp n dey r all quite high de. so whenever we r together we'll lyk high together.. YESSA!! hahax.. e last day we brisk walk n jog to poly marina.. went to kayak n aft dat played some team buildin games.. all v.cooperative n we completed our task given fast.. way to go BRUKAS!! hahax.. e final game we had at poly marina was dis water bomb game called- LOLLIPOP.. (= den we sang our way back to SP.. (There was a stream... ...) n it was ard 7 alr.. i had to left cos rushin 4 dinner.. so i said bye to my dear empire.. I realli had alot of fun this 3 days.. thks BRUKAS!! (=
when i went outside, i saw my dear sittin at e steps of e convention hall.. i was reali reali surprised he was waitin for mi.. didnt expected it.. some more he waited for lyk 2 hrs lor.. so sry to hv make u wait so long.. but im reali reali touched!! muackz!! love ya!! (=
yest aft sch.. i went to look for hermes, zhi ping n dear at tiong.. mi n hermes had a lot of fun "shooting dear" till he lyk gt nth to say.. lols it was funni la.. n yeah! i finali had subways for dinner.. yum yum.. i shared a foot long bread wif dear.. hahax.. it was filling can.. but i ate quite fast cos i was super hungry.. aft walkin awhile.. we went back home.. missed a us 14 n waited for another half n hr n still no 14 was in sight.. we took no.5 instead.. i felt so bad.. dear was alr so tired.. n he still gt alot of tinks hvnt do.. dear will noe wad i mean of feelin bad.. okie i shall stp here.. tata!! (=
kawaii!;
3:00 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
hihi!! (= im here to update again.. met hermes yest wif kel n 1 of hermes classmate.. act.. v.short only.. for lyk less den half hr.. reali miss u hermes.. but i was feelin kinda emo b4 dat thus nt reali high.. mit up soon okie?? hmm.. n if kel bully u tell mi.. hahax.. i will noe wad to do.. muahahahahax.. okie.. nw to update bout my sch life.. for e past few daes.. i've bcum a bag checker.. hahax.. ask siti n u'll noe y.. n i've finali repair my com on wed during stats lesson.. gt permission frm tcher 1 okie.. i didnt sneak out.. hahax.. thks dear for runnin up e stairs frm canteen to acc mi to 2248.. hahax.. n nw.. im hvin itab lesson.. goin to hv a test ltr.. wsh mi luck.. hahax.. tonite im goin to camp.. wun b back till sun.. will miss sum1 dearly de... hahax.. (= lookn 4ward to it.. hope i'll hv fun(= tata!!
kawaii!;
11:29 AM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
yeah!! he's back.. nt bein able to contact him is reali bad kkz..hmm.. im glad i saw him todae.. muackz!! love him!! hmm.. but duno leh.. nw i feel bad n sad.. it seems lyk e tinks i say or do todae juz pissed him off.. i reali dun mean in anyway.. but i duno y it irritates him.. i juz merely mention it v.normally.. n u noe sumtyms when im reali intersted in sumtink, i wil get impatient.. but it made such a big diff dis tym round.. okie.. me nt feelin v.gd nw.. kinda upset bout wad i've done.. i guess i reali hv to watch my words.. hahax.. shall go n rest n nt tink bout anytink alr.. nitez ppl!! sweetie dreamz!!
words do hurt sumtyms..
kawaii!;
11:29 PM
Saturday, May 03, 2008
sry ar ppl.. i tink until tmr my post will b lyk tokin bout him.. okie la.. i shall make it short n sweet.. hmm.. i hv nt heard frm him for lyk more than 24 hrs alr can.. is lyk nt even a msg or wad.. tink cos cnt use fone ba? duno leh.. hahax.. hmm.. okie la.. i shall confess.. i miss him! (blush) dunsuan mi hor ppl.. it's normal to miss ppl can.. (= okie la.. n todae went vivo again! for ur info i hv been goin dere for lyk 3 continuous sats alr.. cos it's e nearest shoppin centre aft a swim at safra..bought a pair of shorts n 2 shirts.. hahax..omg.. i didnt manage to resist e temptation n i spent again.. bad gal.. hahax.. hmm.. okie la.. i duno wad to blog bout alr.. some1s coming back frm camp tmr alr.. cant wait.. wahahax(= nitez n sweetie dreamz ppl!! (=
kawaii!;
10:37 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
it has only been 6 hrs.. n i miss him alr... hw ar? hmm.. im goin to tell myself dat 3 daes gonna pass reali fast.. hope he enjoys himself dere n will b back soon.. i wana tell u dat - u're being missed!! (= i love you!! sundae gonna come reali soon rite?? i guess so.. ( hahax.. deceivin myself..) lols.. smilez!! (=
kawaii!;
11:54 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
hmm.. duno y.. im feelin a little disappointed n sad nw.. hahax.. mayb cos i listen too much emo song liao.. hehez.. i guess i wun b able to c sum1 for few daes frm nw.. cos he's goin 4 camp tmr alr.. hahax.. miss miss!! hmm.. i shall go listen to happy songs.. if nt i will spent labour dae emo-in.. hw can?! n i feel reali bad nw.. i feel lyk im always makin him wry n always spoilin tinks 4 him.. i noe he cares alot for mi.. but i juz feel v.bad.. nxt tym i shall juz tell him aft everytink.. i rather i feel sad den makin both upset.. hmm.. shall nt tok bout it liao.. hahax.. my labour dae was fruitful kkz.. i did project n hmwrk.. didnt defeat e wrd LABOUR day rite? lols.. im full of nonsense as always.. (= feelin beta alr.. cheers!
kawaii!;
6:40 PM
"Teardrops On My Guitar"
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
P.S. help!! im so addicted to dis song.. can listen it for 1 whole day.. can get reali emo sumtyms.. but dis song is reali nice.. My addiction to this song is juz lyk my addiction to u.. simply loves my personal msg.. "reassurance is wad i need to get mi thru.. wil u always b dere 4 mi when i need u to?" WILL YOU??
kawaii!;
1:32 PM