Tuesday, November 29, 2011
回想过去,我还真的有那么一点的佩服我自己.. (High tolerance level!) Maybe it's the trust that I had that allowed me to go on without doubting bah.. Unless its really over my limits.. Haha Okayokay, this is indeed a very random thought..
kawaii!;
10:20 PM
Monday, November 14, 2011
A lot, actually. A first boyfriend/girlfriend was just the first relationship you had. You thought it was real but it really isn’t. When you’re on your first relationship, you don’t know the difference between love, admiration and infatuation. It is when you get you’re first love when you think you’re stupid. You thought you fell in love with the person you had a relationship with in the past but you weren’t, because when your first love comes, that’s when you know what love really is. You may not notice it while you still have them but it really hits you when you lose them. It hits you that you really love them because losing them was the worst pain you could ever go through. The most painful ever and you think that you’ll never get that hurt ever again. You can always get back up because you know life goes on but a part of you will always be with them. That part will stay, no matter what. Once you loved someone, it is impossible to unlove them no matter what they did. You, yourself, don’t even know why you can’t let go. You’ve been hurt and you know it, yet, you just keep crawling back to them. You know it, yourself, that you can always love someone again but it will never be the same way you loved your first love. Because your first love taught you how to love. Loving someone again would always remind you of your first love, the person who taught you how. And each and every time you love again, it reminds you of them, you think if where on Earth they are and who they are with. And it strucks you again, how hurt you’ve been. You just wished you could’ve forgotten all the memories but you can’t because as much as it hurts, you’ve never been as happy as you were when you had them by your side. Time after time, you still think of what you might’ve been if you were still with them. You figure out things happen for a reason but you never really figured out why. And even if months past, you still think of the life you had together and still cry, knowing that they’re still the one for you but they don’t know it. Knowing that you’d give your life, even if it means you being dead, just to be with them again.
Quoted from: "Just'CauseI♥Him" tumblr
kawaii!;
11:26 PM
Friday, November 11, 2011
Have never felt this disappointed before today but neither have I felt this determined before.. It's like i finally understood what time can actually do to us, it brings about changes that's for sure.. I've never tot that i will actually feel so disappointed, or that you can actually bring bout such great disappointment to me.. Do you know that sometimes all i really need is some respect when im ard u? That type of basic respect.. But perhaps it's really a good thing, kinda helping me to let go n put a full stop to all this instead of allowing it to remain a continuation.. But this will definitely not change our friendship that has been forged deep btwn us..
*phew* all I need was to vomit all these out, feeling so much better now! To everyone/anyone who still happen to come across this post/blog, I'm alright, so pls do not ask me anything.. Thanks! (:
kawaii!;
12:15 AM